I came home and the W is completely blahhhhh. She looks tired, beaten and distant. I snooped a bit and looked in her journal, she has been writing quotes from scripture about freedom, being happy and stuff like that. She wrote something that said we tried again, and its not working. She writes I want to be happy again, not rush in any direction, to take walks and be happy and laugh. Does she not realize all this has to do with her not me? There is no mention of any other person, as before with the A, she wrote about the other guy and bashed me. This time none of that, but not anything positive either, regarding us.
I guess she just cant be happy with me, that is what I am reading in her journal. I dont think any changes I make will make a difference unless she gets to where she needs to be on her own, not in our M. I am a little upset, obviously the first thing that comes to mind is wanting to fix things, I have to hold back and not try to "FIX" her.
Back to basics and letting her journal and complain about me and our M.
Let her journal, stop reading her journal, it's her journal, not your journal, you've determined she's not having an affair, you can stop snooping, no matter how much you try to hide the fact that you're snooping around on her, you will always leave telltale evidence behind which shows that you've been snooping.... it isn't attractive.
Let her take care of her happiness,
You just continue to work on being the best person you can be for you and your kids.
