W got up for work this morning, I was already up. W was leaving for work and as she walked out the door leaned back and turned her head/cheek toward me so I could give her a kiss.
W went to work and I went to bed. W came home from work, when she walked in the door I greeted W and she said "hey" in a low mopey tone.
Yesterday W and I agreed to go out and look for a new washer and dryer. We have yet to purchase either since we purchased our home back in Nov. I said to W "I'm going to go grab something to eat then get ready and we'll head out" W replied "If you want" and so I said "If not I can go myself" W said nothing in return. In the end we chose not to go.
W asked me to hand her the book she purchased yesterday on pregnancy. W started to read the book and shared snippets with me. At one point W passed the book over to me and I educated myself on a a few things. W then fell to sleep.
A little while later W woke up. I told W about interesting things I had read in the book. W then read some of the sections I did and we had some conversation about the topic. This led W to go on webMD and look a an ovulation calendar.
The calendar had broke down my W's cycle and gave her suggested dates where she would be most fertile to increase her chances of getting pregnant. The 21-24 were her best days. W had it in her head that we were going to try on those days. So I said to W "I really do want to start a family with you but I think it is best for now that we use protection." W said "what did you just say?" I repeated "We use use protection" and so W proceeded to hop out of bed and storm out the room.
I went downstairs W came down shortly after, W still very upset. I said "I am not saying that I don't want to start a family with you but as the book outlined there are steps that you need to take to prepare yourself for a pregnancy" I said this to W because she is a vegetarian and eats absolutely no form of meat. The book has information on how to supplement the body for the lack of vitamins ect...I then said "I think it would be best and I would feel more comfortable if we planned for sometime after the fall" W said "Fine we just won't do anything then" I left it at that.
W decided to sit on the back deck and do some planning for our trip, I went out there and joined in. We planned out all the destinations we wanted to visit and on what days. W wanted to go tanning and asked if I wanted to join. Yes, I went tanning. Working nights you don't see the sun as often and I tend to get really pale.
I the way I reminded myself that the spot for the retrouvaille still had to be reserved. I said to W "I still have to reserve the spot for retrouvaille weekend, they just need to speak with you and ask a few questions" W said "OK" then I said "it maybe too late to call now" W said "Yeah, I would feel more comfortable calling during early afternoon tomorrow." I replied "Sounds good, we'll call early afternoon tomorrow"
After we got home W watched a little TV and check her email and started to read ore of her book. W showed me a couple sections she thought were interesting. Soon after W called it a night and went to bed.
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Just thoughts I have and I am only venting here so bare with me
How can W want to have intercourse with the intentions of getting pregnant when beyond that there is not intimacy? and very little affection.
M: 27, W: 25 Together since: 01/31/00 M: 10/4/09 (8 Months) ILBNILWY: 01/24/10 EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted). Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10 Retrouvaille: 09/10/10
