Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

God, I can be such an idiot sometimes.

I'm about 99% secure with the fact she isn't talking to any OM. But that 1% of doubt is what is killing me. Tonight I confronted her about lying to me and said I want to trust her again, yada yada, and it blew up to "you're checking on me all the time, reading my email, hacking my computer, etc.... makes me feel like you are just controlling me and I HATE that about you".

Things calmed down just a little and I brought up tomorrows plans. I usually take my S4 to the library for story time every week (new development since bomb) and she has expressed interested in taking him some time since it's kind of "my thing". Conversation went like this:

Me: Would you like to take S to the library tomorrow?
W: Maybe, it doesn't really matter.
Me: Well, you've expressed interest in it before, I'd like to LET you take him.
W: LET me? LET me? That is so controlling......you treat me like a child.


Ugh. One little word. I didn't mean it like that but I'm starting to see that I treat her like a child with choice words like that. What I meant to say was: "I'd be nice if you took him, I'm sure you'd both enjoy it, and you've expressed interest in taking him before. I would like it if you took him, it would make me feel good."

Right?