RLay, I am so sorry for the hurt you are going through. I know probably a million people have told you this but no matter WHAT he was feeling ~ his actions towards you are UNACCEPTABLE!!! I am having the same issue with anger. I think that if I show it then in some warped way I think that would prevent him from wanting to come home!!! WTF - he doesn't want to come home!!! Then I'm afraid that the anger will consume me and I don't want to be that person. I don't want my kids to witness that. Take it slow, take it easy ~ staying home with the tv is not a bad thing! Your boys are at a GREAT age and they will look back one day with appreciation at the stability YOU provided them. Keep fighting the good fight and keep the faith! IB
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
