Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

Thanks everyone. Made it through attorney visit. She was great. Basically - my state is a no fault state so if H wants a divorce - he can get one. Legal separations here are good for only 1 year ~ she said that again if he wants a D then we would just be back here and paying again in another year. She suggested a "provisional divorce/disillusionment" - basically if we set up the terms - she files the provisional and it stays that way until someone basically pays to finalize it.

I called H to see if he had created any kind of "proposal" ~ he was curt and said that HE went to an attorney yesterday but that the one he went to wasn't able to file in our county. (Y?????) He said he wasn't comfortable putting HIS stuff out there. I said I understand and that I was just following through on suggestion of my attorney. Said if we could agree outside of their office - then it would cost less. He softened a bit. I asked him when he could have something. He said probably tomorrow. I asked if he was in a hurry because I have work, getting S and myself ready for FL trip and then heading to S's tourney. He said he was fine to let it wait. I'm letting him drive my car down to FL (S and I are flying) - his car is in shop. (doing this for S)

Now what I need to work through are my religious views of filing a "provisional divorce" ~ or as my lawyer said ~ if he wants it let him get it. And right now he doesn't have the $$ to do it. But then I'm worried about if he takes on more debt or gets in trouble with the law through his extra-curricular activities.

Lots to think about ~ but can give myself time. I went and got what I needed - information.

Felt a little stronger today ~ actually fell asleep on my own last night (ok ~ I did have a beer) ~ but I slept for longer periods of time.

Thanks to you all for helping me through some really rough days:)