tired of this

[A_goodman]

You are right Ken. But it IS the elephant in the room. He's going to want to discuss it. I won't cop to anything I don't believe I'm guilty of, but I would like to hear her expound on a couple of those items.

The bottom line is, whatever her justifications, whether thay are trumped up or really her feelings, I am droping the rope. My ORIGINAL argument in MC still holds: It's her decision to make. At least now, I am not terrified. And trying squelch the resentment.

She said last night that she is commited to see the original 6 sessions we agreed to through, but that she hates it and doesn't want to do more. I am totally cool with that and will tell her that I have decided that If she wants to stop, I will take that as a sign that she's finally done trying and we should part company. I'll give her whatever credit she may be seeking for the college effort and just go about my life. At the onset, when i was smothering her, she said she didn't want to discuss this stuff outside of a clinical setting and with minor exceptions I have abided by that wish. Therefore, at the conclusion of MC, I will NOT discuss the R again in any way unless she indicates that she is totally committed to us again. We will either split or she will wither on the vine. I'll be out living my life W/O her.

Tonight is session # 4 BTW, so I am in this 100% for at least two more weeks. I suppose I should let her know.

I was thinking about e-mailing my own little communique to MC. I thought I would forward the link to the WAW Syndrom report. Is that a good/bad idea. I would have to trust him not to bring it up. W is wicked smart. If she even sniffs that I'm getting help online, she'd root it out and all my efforts would be for naught. Ideas?