Grit, I did see it last night, she looked surprised or puzzled and my demeanor was that of being agreeable and friendly. If I had been short or curt with her that would have changed her perception for sure.
The most important thing is that it "felt right" to me. I had totally taken what I wanted out of what I was communicating to her both verbally and in my body language.
Letting it sink in........This is the part where I have to let this be who I am so that I do not have to call 10 other people to ask what I should do or say next time. I want it to come naturally. More time.
The big, big picture is that I realize that I am doing this without expectation. I am going to be this way no matter what happens, D or not.
It is a discovery when you actually experience it and there is no way you can read about it or have someone tell you about it and understand it.
With everyone's help I was able to chart a course as to what I was going to do or say. It was not until I was standing in front of her and I did it that I felt it and even later on in the evening that I understood what I was feeling.
That probably didn't make alot of sense but it does to me, FWIW.
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
