i see her only in memories. no opportunity to see her until she turns 18 in June 2011. ANd even then no telling if or when it will ever happen. The Lord will provide! I am very fortunate for the memories that allowed me to have with her. I think it will be 2 year this summer since my last contact.
I gave my W some of the peripheral contact #'s for my D16.75. All we have to go on for contact #'s is just Aunt's and such that she has very irregular contact with to the best of my knowlege. I was quite surprised that my W was interested but when she expressed interest I passed the number or two that I had.
There is a bit more 'normalized' contact/communication between W & I. Just seems like I am at the county fair on one of the largest merry-go-round'carousels. I am trying hard ..real hard to resist the urge to be cynical/skeptical as to motivations and such. Need to utilize prayer much more. Act-as-if much more. Live in the moment much more. Be thankful for the so much that I got much more. Sleep some more.
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May the Lord guide you and your willingness to accept His counsel in all things be great.
T, what's that? Did you see your D? Hope you are ok... Hugs K
she is great inspiration for special writings that I like to 'bring her to life' with. I must only rely on faith that the Lord is 'holding her in the palm of His hand' and that she is doing fantastic.
I am thankful that I have my SD21 to have occasional phone cantact with (especially since at last check she ceased contact with my W). Just wish SD21 would make good on her mentionings/promise? of getting together with me for a bite to eat and a chance to meet her fiance. She will be M's this Fall is the plan.
been thinking more and more about my Missy (D16.75). Completely sucks having zero knowlege of how, where, what she is up to. Just hope and pray she is continuing her journey of survival and is in a good place with good people. I really hope she is experiencing many joys and is thriving. Life is incredibly hard & then there is her's. I owe much of my inability to have any contact with her to myself and my screw-ups that made it so.
I'm sorry about Missy. I am sure she has thought about you as well. and perhaps someday you will see each other again.
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Need to utilize prayer much more. Act-as-if much more. Live in the moment much more. Be thankful for the so much that I got much more. Sleep some more.
this should be for all of us.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
