In fact, when we spoke via phone today I told her it's time for me to do just that. I somehow need to find a way to do that, while still being involved with each other somewhat. Even now, she still wants to spend some time together and remain "friends". The optimist in me says that as long as we remain somewhat involved in each others lives, there is a chance. I know many would say it's time to do otherwise, but my gut just doesn't agree. So many people would be thrilled to have any time with their WAS.
I am trying to let her go in my mind, but it's just not real. At the basis of every thought and action is my desire to have her here with me for the rest of our lives.
She is truly my favourite person in the world. I am honestly lost at this point and have no idea what to do next. I have NO interest in dating others or anything like that. I think it's possible to get back to where we were a few weeks ago with some minor tinkering. I think....but I really don't know.
