I have been pretty quiet the last month or so, but I felt it time to give an update on my situation....more for me than anyone else, and possible show things can get better to those who are only just now starting down their DB road.
Over the past two months W has been telling me she loves me and trying to do little things that she tells me I am not noticing or acknowledging. She is now giving me hugs and quick kisses several times daily, something she has never done our entire marriage.
some days are still very hard and I get angry inside (controlling the emotion was a huge step in changing myself) there are even times when I still find it hard to look into her eyes when having one of my days....but I work through it.
Still have not had face to face with OM but have heard he has been getting in trouble all over the place lately, which makes me chuckle….but the big test is only a matter of weeks away, can’t go into detail to maintain my “identity” just in case.
Bottom line is my W is wearing her wedding ring (something she has not done in 9-10 years) and really trying to connect with me. She has shown remorse and regret for what she did to me and our family…I think the only “issue” I have is allowing her TOTALLY back within my heart for fear of the pain she once caused me will happen again…..
Not happily ever after but better than the alternatives.
Gman
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
