After Exposure - Keep It Going

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She's just putting the VERY OLD one down (not the other 2), and I am starting to see it is her time anyway.

You are right. I CANNOT control her AT ALL.

But we have sooooo little contact as it is now. I do my thing, and she does hers. We only live together because she can't afford getting her own place. I have a life now, and she shows very little if any interest in it at all. Occasionally she looks at my Facebook page.

I am by no means pursuing her. In fact last night we talked about splitting up the assets. I didn't lose control, and I was entirely calm. But Allen told me to skip the "I'm done" speech. So she still thinks I am NOT done with her. So I guess my ACTIONS will have to speak for me. But that is going to mean agreeing to sell the house.


All I am doing with my intel is looking for the smallest signs of change. We are supposed to NOT do what doesn't work right? Well up until this point NOTHING I have done has worked. She HAS noticed I am more outgoing, friendly, and interesting. But that just makes her want to leave even MORE. She wants AWAY from me in the worst way.

And here is my biggest fear: We put the house up for sale, she moves out with this guy or to her own place. She indulges her sexual fantasies all the while I am here alone in this house.

I HAVE dropped the rope. And I am walking away, but there are times when I look back and she is not following and it HURTS.

So everyday I have to deal with my fear as the time when it comes to pass gets closer and closer. Those first few nights in her new apartment with that potential guy are going to be agonizing. But maybe by then she will have done me in even further.

And YES, I need to get over that. But you KNOW how freakin' hard it is.