QS, at this point, she is going to do whatever she wants to do, regardless of what you do or think - so it's best to not think about the possibilites and what if's. It will drive you mad.
She's already cheated on you, filed for divorce, and is on the prowl. You have to let her go, to live and make mistakes on her own. That doesn't mean stop loving her, or run out and find a new person.
Keep your dignity and self respect....and STOP reading her texts and checking on her. It isn't helping you. I analyzed every little thing, it's been a year and a half and I'm still recovering from dreaming up the what ifs.
Get back to who you used to be when you first met. It's isn't easy, but I can guarantee she will start wondering what is happening with you, start missing you, and then try to reconnect with you.
Get yourself healthy first, relationship later.
M 32 WAW 34 D - 5 S - 4 PA 1/09 Moved out 3/09 She filed 5/09 90 Day Postponement 11/09 State Dismissed case 4/10 Moved home 9/10