Bradley, I had a whole msg typed out and then my h came down and I had to log out. Anyway, thanks for chiming in. I like to hear other people's perspectives about stuff. I get a little bit out of each and every post I read.
I know that this is a wake up call for me too. It has already helped me tremendously..as much as it has hurt me too. i have lost over 50 lbs, I feel so much better, I exercise every day..I have a better outlook on life..when I'm not having a panic attack, anyway. And those are getting farther and farther apart.
So, it hasn't been all bad. And if my H and I do ever get things back on track, our M will be better in every way. And if not, then I will know what not to do with my next R. Sometimes I think that i wouldn't want to take the chance of being with a man again because this could happen again, and I don't think I want to do it again. But, i also know that I am not one of those people who likes to be alone..so it would become a priority..to find a life comapnion..it is one of the things that I have always had on my my life list. I thought I found the one to do that with, but I guess that remains to be seen. Not that I'm giving up, but i see the wisdom in the advice i've read here..to be prepared for the worst.
I'm sorry you went thru 12 months of hell with your W. Are things better now? It's amazing how fast time flys by isn't it? Can't believe it has been almost 2 years already since the really bad stuff started.
i really do feel better when I don't think about it and when I don't have to play the games..I hate that. I like honesty and laughter and real love.
