Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

Stomach still hurts...I don't want the pain. I am TIRED!!! I am not the same person I was a few months ago. I don't know WHO I am anymore!

Scared about going to attorney tomorrow. Wondering if H is mentally ill, sex addict, or MLC or all of the above. If he's in MLC - what stage? He walks around very sure of himself - completely detached from me and our life together. Infrequently texts kids regarding surface things - avoidance of feelings talk. I have tried very hard to stay quiet with him - only respond to his texts about mail or kids. I feel as if my mind is shot to h*ll! Lose track of what has happened, when, impact, ~ I need to have a good grasp of where I am and what has happened to me so that I can heal. Is this normal?