This train: rolling down a no-come-back track!

[poet]

Thanks all, for taking the time out to answer.

I'm not going to lie to you, What. I'm down. I know this because I cry sometimes, after work, or on weekends. Not sure why. Sometimes, my insides still feel like rubber, but I'm a survivor. I'll make it. One way or another, I'll make it. Thanks for your concern.

me

[Gardener]

poet,

I'm not going to lie to you, What. I'm down. I know this because I cry sometimes, after work, or on weekends. Not sure why.

Loss. Stress, being human etc.
This may sound simplistic, but my IC suggest when I feel that way, schedule it for later. e.g., "Not now. Later. I'll revisit this/these feelings tonight after dinner (or whenever)." It works. Now. Not sure if it would have earlier on in my sitch.

...but I'm a survivor. I'll make it. One way or another, I'll make it.

Damn straight.
Tell yourself that when you feel the crying coming on.
You are a little stronger every day. Remember that.

[poet]

^

[faithisbelieving]

poet...as a man, I did a lot of crying early on. In fact, in too far back. Granted, in private...away from all....but, different now. It's for my children.

I can tell you right now and perhaps you won't believe me, but, pretty soon, you are going to look back and see that you had an unhealthy relationship in some way. This will work out.

Crying..is good. You need to let it out and grieve. You WILL be OK.
FIB

[poet]

Oh, trust me, FIB. I am a "fer" cry from the beginning days of this when all was woe, and I thought I was going to die. Truly, I have vivid memories of the fear of dying. Now, why I thought and felt that way, I'll not understand for a long time.

But, I'm a long way off from the part that says, the relationship was perfect. I know there was an unhealthiness there. Why I did not see it sooner, I'll never know.

I feel sorry for him now. And most days, I'm a good bit better than I was during that last posting. The days when I cry are few and far between anymore. They mostly come when I'm not connecting with others/friends and family. But, I'm able to break out of that doldrum phase eventually. And, I know a good cry when I see one.

Thanks for your support. You know, we all need help/words of encouragement once in a while.

hugs,
poet

[poet]

^

[whatisis]

Oh, trust me, FIB. I am a "fer" cry from the beginning days of this when all was woe, and I thought I was going to die. Truly, I have vivid memories of the fear of dying. Now, why I thought and felt that way, I'll not understand for a long time.

The whole experience is a death of sorts! It's one of the most, if not the most, heartwrenching experiences you'll ever have. I can understand your fear

[poet]

Hey there,

Just saying hello. My thread is dead! lol. No pun intended. May have some news soon.

cheers,
poet

[Virtually_Handsome]

((((((poet))))))

Hoping it's good news!

[poet]

Hi Virt!

Not good or bad. Just, "it is what it is."

((((((((((Jeff))))))))))))