This is such a difficult time. Ive been getting friendly texts and even a long chatty phone call on Sunday.Neither of us saying what we really feel its always been that way.I keep composing bitter letters to him in my head telling him how my retirement is ruined and how cruel he was to deceive me for 30 years. But I dont think it would be worth the momentary satisfaction of sending to him. We have two couples interested in the house -think he realises now he will have to move. I still dont want to divorce him but will have to once I receive settlement. What then? I do get distressed after contact everything churns round in my head again.Its been a roller coaster 3 years with him sitting withdrawn on the fence the whole time.Would always take him back even though I can see he is a damaged and selfish person.Dont feel I can move on as long as we are having this contact but cant ignore his e-mails or calls.Snodderly, how do I leave the door ajar without seeming needy or pushy? Its so hard to be light and friendly to someone who broke your heart.
