I needed to come by here and see ALL of these responses! Thank you for caring and supporting. I'm still struggling today - bad night sleep - torturing myself with images of H holding someone else in his arms.
Brooklyn - you are right about letting SIL know not to share. Will do it kindly!
This hurt feels like a cancer inside of me right now - eating away at me. I don't want to feel this.
I am struggling with this part of my situation: What is my role in the demise TODAY? 3 years ago - when infidelity revealed - used MC to own up to my own s**t and have worked hard to make personal changes (respecting H more, paying more attention to the way I look, act, etc., collaborating) - the kids noticed good changes. Now that he is gone and has disclosed his continued infidelities over these 3 years and such - what am I owning up to NOW? I understand that I need to get stronger - and maybe I've been an open wound all this time and have never really healed from the onset. I just feel lost. Maybe I'm trying to rush the healing - never really giving myself over to the pain. Maybe I'm afraid that if I do I won't be able to function as a mother or an employee or friend.
I am so grateful for this board!
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M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
