What's new with you? After 2.5 years how do you see things and where do you see yourself in the next 6mos to a year?
Well, I'm hoping to start riding turtles professionally in the rodeo circuit, It's just hard to find a saddle that really fits well. Later I'd like to travel to Europe for the yearly Run With The Turtles event they hold there, you know where they let thousands of turtles out onto the street and people run with them. The green gunk on the roads makes it that much more challenging. Actually, my goal is to work on getting my energy back and get a grip on the low level anxiety that sits there day in and day out. When I have energy I'm much more confident and have all sorts of things I'd like to do but, honestly, I've done a sh!tty job of taking care of myself this way. When I separated I think part of me said "Whew, that's over now I can relax!" Uh uh, the next stage is just as stressful only in a different way. I spent all my time burning myself out running from event to event feeling so proud that nothing was keeping me down but I forgot to refuel the tank and it kind of ran out of gas (take note CTH!). So for the next few months I'm really gonna try to do some relaxing things like Yoga, Qi Gong, meditation and prayer. It's time to give that a bigger part of my life rather than just go go go! I'm also considering the Cognitive Therapy idea because over the last year a lot of fearful, out of synch thoughts have streamed into this old brain but money is always an issue as my work insurance plan covers sweet piss all (if you have some kind of emotional or family crisis my employer will toss $200 bucks to a Psychologist per year, that's maybe 1-2 sessions with a generous Psych....such caring!)! There's always the temptation to do it myself, as I work in the mental health field, but that's usually a stupid choice. Come to think of it, that's what my wife did when she went for counselling "why should I pay her money, I can get the book and do it myself"...yeah, that worked out well! OT also mentioned a book that might be helpful in "re-inventing" myself. Anyway, gotta run as the Running With The Turtles application deadline is drawing near. Thanks for asking, Romeo!
