Last entanglement in Paris

[sleeper]

You are indeed the light.

Is that a line from a beer commercial?

If she does start to come your way, what the hell do you do now?

I seriously doubt she will come my way, so I haven't considered it.

Maybe I am just not looking hard enough. Is it play it by ear?

Warior, you may be looking too hard. In fact, if you are "looking" in any way, shape or form you are looking too hard. Those occasional glimpses of the "old" them is what makes this so mind twisting. There isn't really anything to play. They hold the entire deck. You gotta live for you, be true to yourself and do what your conscience tells you is the right thing for you.

Do you have a game plan?

No game plan other than taking care of myself and my kids and living my life. Learning to let go and do that has been easier said than done.

I keep thinking far ahead like this and wonder ok then what?

don't. You will drive yourself insane.

...the fog rolls back in.

That's because mlc has to run its course. There is nothing you can do and probably nothing she can do either (counseling) to curtail the course of this. If you have made any estimate of "how long?" (we're not supposed to make such an estimate but lets be honest, we all do), multiply it by 2.5 and you'll probably have a fairly accurate time frame.

I learned that trick from a relative who worked in the defense industry. He would take the original estimated cost of a weapons system they were building and multiply it by 2.5. The product was always much closer to the actual final cost than the original estimate .