Not to sound cold here,but Sunny your two oldest kids are old enough to have part-time jobs. Even your youngest could have a paper route or something.You need to get out there and find a job. It would do wonders for your self-esteem and maybe help you stop being "clingy".

I can see from what you write how your WAH looks at that "picture" of you and the baggage you represent.I don't think you realize that you come across to him in the way....but to a WAS it could.

Telling him the things you do is not working. I would suggest a complete 180.....a COMPLETE 180 from what you have been doing. Make him believe you are independent of him and don't need him. Let him see how you are just fine without him. Create a different vision for him to view. He doesn't respond well to the one he's looking at now.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!