yup. 1% milk is my max. smile i'm so used to skim milk now.
i'll try snacking on nuts.
i've been snacking on the muffins but i tend to favor salty snacks than sweets.

journaling ..
today, i felt a bit overwhelmed.
i had so much on my plate that i took a day off to take care of my own business.
my back was extremely sore that i had to take an advil.
i went to the family law centre today to inquire about filing for d.
i found out that i cannot file for d until the 1 yr separation is over. i can't even file ahead of time and have it sit in the queue.
this is why i haven't been served yet.
i left with a package of forms for a simple divorce.
if i choose to file, then i fill them out.

i came home, cancelled my h's costco card, straightened out my car insurance policy, and made an appointment to design the kitchen in my new home.

i also received a couple of calls for upcoming contracts and i had to complete a few job applications for these contracts.

i was so tired, i wasn't sure if i wanted to go to squash.
i got myself dressed and forced myself to go.
h didn't go but he came home straight from work.

i don't miss him at squash.
but i was reminded that one of his reasons for d was that he felt he was dragging me through his life.
ever since we split, it seems as if i've accomplished a lot more than he. i've gained new friends, love the club, i enjoy exploring my culinary skills, etc.

i've gotten myself in great shape. and he's let himself go.
my intel says that he has no life. his life evolves around mom and dad.

can life with mom and dad really be that much better than it was with me?
i couldn't help it .. i shed a few tears today.

need to go to bed.
good night.