Thanks Dr. L, I only left because she can afford the mortgage and unfortunately if the D goes through I have to take Spousal support until I finish my degree and get on my feet. (I hate it but what can I do.. I didn't want this). The other factor was that I didn't want my S to find a new place this is hard enough for him as it is.
I agree she has told me she has noticed changes in me, but these are things I want to do the Gym, hanging out with the guys. Something I didn’t do because I wanted to spend my days off with the family. I think the thing that I have found during this time was getting my confidence back and not feeling like a doormat anymore and finishing school; which I should have my degree by next year, and a job in Gov’t. Contracting.
The one thing the affair did was make me not hold my feelings inside anymore. I guess that was the only good thing sometimes it helps, but other times my emotions get to me.
