Let me tell you a problem that is going to end up destroying your marriage. Either sooner or later, but it WILL destroy it..
YOUR low self esteem. You self esteem is so low that you have a hard time believing that not only your wife could love you, but most any woman. THAT is your problem. You almost ruined your relationship by the ten years of abuse. That abuse is a symptom of your low self esteem and needing to bring her down so you can feel better.
PLEASE do not fall victim to your low self esteem. You need to start changing your thought process. You need to start thinking in terms of "wow I really have changed and I am a good catch now, I am glad she still loves me and I almost blew it. I have come a long way and I will be fine with or without her. She says she loves me and I am going to accept that. She says she is going to try and I do see that she is and I am thankful that she is. I can't believe how happy I now am that we have come so far."
