Hey Puppy, I can’t thank you enough for all the advice and support you have given to me during today!! It means so much as I know you are super busy!! Sorry this is long post is a little longer!! As far as starting a new thread do I start from the beginning of my situation or do I just link some of my threads?
The one truth that I got from W in our last MC secession In June was for the first time in months not that I wanted to here, but she admitted she still had feelings for OM. I know it doesn’t make sense; but I felt as the first time in months since I felt us slipping in a little back in Dec of 09 that she was telling me the truth. (I know messed up).
As far as the BC pills it just doesn’t add up as when she stopped taking them in March that was the first time she had ever been off them since she was pregnant. Now it’s almost been enough time for the separation to get our D going because S is not biologically mine and in Va. With no children it’s 6 months of separation. (Like you said just be alert) I don’t mean to keep rambling, as I said wife has a lot of other issues she is dealing with as S is not biologically mine. I came into the picture when he was two and he called me dad ever since. Her ex cheated on her while she was pregnant and S ½ brother is only separated by a few months apart and ex married his Affair partner. So needless to say her family would be completely devastated if they knew what happened with us.
That is just one thing there are some more issues as well.. How do I look for clues if were separated and I know I can’t fly off the handle if I find something? What is your personal thought on my situation.. Do you think like a lot of people I know that I’m stupid to hope for anything or that give it time and just move on mainly friend some friends back home.. I know they don’t want to see me hurt maybe that’s why. I just get discouraged sometimes, Yes odds are against me, but they have been in a lot of things in my life that’s why I have hope!!
There are a few other issues only our MC knows about in our marriage and both our past. I’m no saint either I have done some things as well as in our M to case some blame, no abuse, alcohol, or anything like that. Anyway I have dealt with a lot of my issues lack of confidence, being depressed for a long time, I guess being a doormat for the most part. I‘m starting feel like I was when we first were dating strong and confident and W has told me I even carry myself different.
Through all this crap I just don’t want us to give up when everything hasn’t been tried to make us stronger and star a New M in our lives together it’s just to get her to see it somehow or someday before it’s all said and done. Again thanks for all your help you are truly a wonderful person for helping everyone out!! Talk soon Hope
