I'm having a very stormy day too - as you all know! BUT...despite it, you guys managed to make me laugh: cadbury egg! lol
I'm in mourning...dropping the rope...letting go...whatever you want to call it, after 20 years is very difficult. I don't know why I was so strong previously and having such a rough time of it today, but I know you DO have to go through it. No way around it... sucks.