Well, i moved to this forum. I am not getting back with my ex. I had already been doing good things in my life like I went back to school, I was working two jobs. I was succeding. Now, everything has been put on hold. I don't eat, sleep, exercise or do anything that I like. I just wallow in the pain and it is eating me up inside. I know what I am doing is wrong. I hate waking up each night 10-12 times and thinking about this. I hate the lies that she told that I believed. She betrayed me so badly that I do not want her back now that I know what I know. It was awful for her to do that to me. I am trying to get some goals and ambition but right now i am in the muck and get seem to get out. I feel useless and worthless. I am making my freinds and family sick of talking to me. Thaat dont understand why it bothers me so much. She did not want me anymore it was as simple as that.
Of course it bothers you. It's supposed to bother you. You're supposed to feel like crap because she is important to you. But take care of yourself and move on. It's not going to be easy and the pain won't go away any time soon, but it will lessen over time.
Am I correct in recalling that she had substance abuse issues?
