Wow, CD, Puppy's right...awesome post! I guess I need to decide which road I want to take. The thing is, I thought I'd taken a road and that it had "worked". Apparently not.

SO, what do I do now? I'm thinking of emailing him and calling him out (firmly but not emotionally) on the conversations he is having with other people about the M and such.

Of COURSE I don't want a man that thinks 20 years is disposable and that is willing to throw me aside and who "doesn't love me". I just believe, somewhere, I guess that he does - deep down and that it's worth fighting for. How to fight is the question...