From this day forward................

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Just checking in. There isn't really anything to add.

My D13 had emergency appendectomy on 6/1. Luckily, all went well and smoothly. Things have been crazy since. A lot of softball. A lot of crap. (I'm doing my best not to dwell on the crap.) A lot of just trying to survive the schedules.

Yesterday marked 2 yrs since H moved out. I am doing my best to finally prepare myself (internally) for the end. I know my H is mad that I won't file. I won't pretend that this is a mutual thing. I truly expect that he is working on the D on his own and possibly waiting until the end of ball season (2 weeks) to dump it on me/my attorney. Mostly he just seems angry when he has anything to do with me. It's hard because I still don't understand how we got to this point. I still wish I could turn back time.

I know that I now only love who he used to be, and not who he is now I suppose that's how he feels as well. It doesn't help. I haven't been able to use that knowledge to accept the end of my marriage yet, but I hope to someday. I'm doing my best to move forward. I live my life for me and my kids.....mostly for my kids.