Yes those are my fantasies...more like my insecurities, fear and anxiety. It's like that song Mr. Brightside by The Killers...ugh...torture but thankfully I don't think about those things too much anymore. As for her licking her wounds, yes she probably is or she did even before she moved out...just knowing the history and the patterns I think she's really 'good' about compartmentalizing stuff and can go on in life without thinking about stuff too much. She's always been the 'live today' type of a person and I always think about the future.
As for women marrying less, I can believe that. STBXW's mom never remarried but just in the 10 years I've known her she'd had 4 boyfriends- live-in BFs...so that doesn't help me. What helps me to think is she'll become a nun and go selebet lol - I'm only half kidding. Of course, it's foolish to think she won't have other men in her life and that's what I need to learn to deal with both from my personal feelings perspective and having someone else around DD whom I'm very protective of.
One way of dealing with this is to move on with my life. For me, I don't think I'll ever get married again either or have more kids. So the choices will be limited and there in lies the crux, how do I move on? I know it's only been a few months since she moved out this time but I've been dealing with this for several years. I feel like I put my life on hold for her/us and here I am 4 years later back to square one. No I'm not 100% ready to start dating but I'm ready enough to go out on a casual lunch/movie type of a date every now and then. Or call up a female friend to go places with her that I don't want to go to by myself because it's not as fun.
Wii, I don't ride much but I love getting out into nature whether it's camping, hiking, off-roading or biking. The evening ride was fun. It was nice and cool, saw a couple of owls, heard little critters rustling. It's amazing how the life in the wild comes alive at dusk and dawn. As I was racing down the downhill section probably doing about 20-25mph in the midst of the tall brown grass I did wonder if I'm looking looking like a T-bone steak to some hungry mountain lions lol
NM, you're right about the night shots and I'm not much of a photograhper but I'm a geek so I like to understand how things work. So one day long ago I decided to learn about the camera stuff, 1/3 quadrant, ISO, Aperture etc. It's amazing what a $150 camera can do these days. I've forgotten a lot but I know enough to get by. Glad you liked the pics
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
