goodman - I posted to you but don't know where it went! for what it's worth, I think you are doing very well in a difficult situation. The only that sticks out is the spooning. If you were truly detached, it wouldn't happen. I know b/c my H and I had been disconnected/detached for months.
He: WAH Me: LBW Precious: DD
~ I'm grateful for every day I have to improve the way I relate.