Honestly Robx,

I dont think she will initiate the talk. I wont either. I will be all of what you said at home, cheerful and focusing on me and the kids. I picked up my little girl this morning in front of the W, held her tight as she hugged my neck and played with the cross around my neck, I had my sunglasses on and could see my wife just staring at me and my little girl. I left something out yesterday, when I left church I stopped at CVS for a loaf of bread, a car pulled up next to me with a license plate that said "xander". that is my sons name and I believe it was a sign for me to focus on my kids and be the father they need me to be.

THis will be a long road, whether it ends up with us together or not. All I can do is stay strong and do things for me and the kids.

After the kids went to bed last night, the W stayed in the LR and watched Frasier, I worked on some emails for work, grabbed a book and went to bed. No conversation with W just off to bed to start a new day.