When does this feeling go away. That I have been kicked in the stomach ?

I still can't believe that even if he did want a divorce that he would do it this way, to just have me served at work with no prior knowledge and then just to never come home again. One minute He is a Husband and father and the next minute he is gone.

Me:43
H:43
T:20 YRS
M:15 YRS
Bomb: 6/9/08
Bomb#2 7/6/10
Served with papers at work 7/13/10
DD:14, DD:11