FFH, don't worry about the game or getting your balls back. There's nothing wrong with thinking about dating. It's a natural coping mechanism, and the flirting will come eventually. That's the great thing about flirting, there's no risk, so you'll feel good when you get a smile or laugh in return. Then you'll start to feel alive again.
Think of what you used to do for fun, before the W, before the S. What were your dreams you cast aside as you "grew up?" Take some time to find out what YOU want, what interests you. It can be hard when you're consumed by your sitch, but it's the best way out. That and giving your S as much love as you can in the time you have with him.
