My Wife is Having an Affair with Co-Worker

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Journaling (July 18, 2010):
July 17, 2010 - Wife takes kids to buy snacks and make dinner for us. She makes dinner and buys snacks because she gives me no money even for an emergency for the kids if they need something. I clean dishes. I have to figure out ways to take care of them on my own with no money. D has a sleepover with her friend at 6:00 pm, and I spend time with them and clean up. All W does is lay in the bedroom by herself and interacts very little. I watch TV and help kids when they need it. I spend some time watching a SYFY movie too. I have them get ready for bed and brush their teeth. I put them to bed and clean up after them by myself. I go to bed at around eleven and the kids too.

Kids wake up and watch some TV.

Sunday, July 18, 2010 - I wake up and get myself ready early, and then I wake kids and feed them breakfast, make their beds, have them brush their teeth, and get D's friend ready to go home.

W wakes up and just sits on the sofa and does nothing to help. I make our bed and spend time with the kids. Kids have W and me go to a show on zoo animals with her friends. D tells W before laying in bed next to her that she is going to a pet store with me and S. I take them to the pet store for a couple of hours. Get the kids home and feed them lunch. All of us go swimming together. W gets out after staying a short time. Leaves and comes back to the pool. I get out after a while of playing with kids. Everyone showers and W feeds the kids a snack. Kids and I go to the park for three hours. Come home and kids sleep for a while, and then we go to McDonalds for dinner, but I did not eat because W has said some many bad things about me in the Response to my OSC. I eat to survive for now. I am made to feel guilty if I take anything from her. It is very difficult. I will be okay. Come home and W takes off for an hour or more to put gas in the car. She gets home and then goes in the bedroom with S to watch TV for an hour. I get S to brush his teeth and rimind him. I put kids to bed at 10 pm by carrying them. S give me a little statue to protect me, and W nothing. S and daughter goes to bed. I spend most of the day the kids, and W does not even attempt to spend time with them. She had a choice to go when kids asked her to come. Her choice to stay home.

I am now journaling here.