I am finally mad enough to set her free. I do not want her back. I will not take her back. She is awful. I am not drunk. I just had a revelation that she is crap and why should I set there and make myself feel like crap all day long every day. She is not worth it. She is not as good as me. Everyone on this site and in the world says that she is worthless, her own mother told me to run. She is worthless. I will run. I finally got the message. Now I feel like a fool again. What a piece of crap. Oh well, it is good to have this revelation. Either crap or get off the pot. Isn't that a term that we say but never write. Well, she crapped on me right in front on new husband. Lied, told him she wasn't calling me and didn't want to come back. She had begged me earlier this week and I had to think about it long and hard and accepted her invitataion to come back. And then she lies about it all. She totally denied me. The husband for 9 years to the husband o 1 month. She calls for money all the time. She will call again saying that she is sorry that she just did not want to upset him. I know she will. I will not answer. If she calls me at work I will tell her to F-off every time she calls. She now has no chance. I will not help her no matter what mess she gets in.
I just had a revelation that she is crap and why should I set there and make myself feel like crap all day long every day.
This isn't a revelation, this is you shifting blame and not owning any part of the damage that has been done to your marriage... You sit and make yourself feel like crap day in and day out because you have not "set her free".
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
You seriously need to get some heavy duty therapy for yourself. This I HATE HER/I LOVE HER mentality isn't helping at all. Again, get yourself healthy first.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
Does it matter? I don't think so. He thinks I am calling her. I had let it go and was talking on this until she started wanting to come back. Begging me back. I thought we had worked it out until she didn't show up. I told him to look at the cell phone bills to she who is calling whom. Well, I am sure he knows now. I don't care about her. This was too much. It is destroying my as a person, worker, student, everything is destroyed, right now, my health, my mind if all lost. I am wasting away and cannot get out of it. Wallowing in my misary with no escape. Hope is gone once again. .
Who cares what he thinks? What you need to realize right now is she is married to him, not you.
I am sorry that it has come to this, however now it is time to start living for you.
If they get divorced and she happens to actually clean her act up and then comes back, great...
If not you are still going to better because of it.
Hope, never lost, it may be hiding until you can pull yourself out of the darkness however it is never lost.
(((((Hugs)))))
He said that "boyfriend" called him, not "husband" - so this is OM1. I believe there was two OM's in this sitch, and the mother said she had a lot of boyfriends.
Yes, her mom said that. No, there is just one husband, the guy she just met. The one she said that she made such a mistake that she wasn't thinking. Like I said-It doesn't matter. I will not return or let her. I am through with this R and will go on my way living the best life that I can. There, there is my goal-make myself better and happy,give myself more opportunities to succeed. I am almost done with my Masters so I should be ready to go.
