The saga continues

[OfficerInNeed]

Saturday night:

After my exchange of posts on this forum I get ready for work. W Remains sleeping in bed. I catch up on the latest posts here and then it HIT ME. Gucci when you asked "Why do you always want to ruin her dreams" I felt empty. I never seen it that way.

I did some research on parenting classes and books and sent them to W in email.

I let W know I was leaving for work. W asked that I call at 930 as a wake up call for her, I told her I would do so. I kissed W on the forehead and then left for work.

For most of the night what you said Gucci lingered on my mind. I am crushing my W's dreams. I am making her more miserable than she already is and if she were to tell me that she no longer wanted our M again I would do exactly what you said....become "Mr. Dad."

I called W at 930 as she requested and our conversation went as follows

ME: "Hey sleeping beauty, did you rest OK?"
- in a very upbeat confidant tone.

W: "Yeah, it was OK"
- W's tone immediately become pleasant and upbeat as well as a result of my greeting

ME: "So Raven (our dog) was not a problem for you?"
- Dog gets a little crazy sometimes

W: "No"

ME: "Work is slow right now, hopefully it picks up"

W: "Oh, that stinks"

ME: "Tomorrow sometime maybe we could sit down and go over the finances for the trip. Plan things out, I am excited about going"

W: "Me too"

ME: "Also I was thinking we should start a fund to prepare the house for a baby. We can convert the exercise room and tear the rug up"
- Not saying it would happen right away but letting W know that I am also excited about starting a family someday.

W: "Yes, it would be nice to lay down a new floor and there is a lot of space in that room."
- W sounded very surprised and please with what I had said. I detected happiness in her voice.

ME: "Do you want to check out the polish festival tomorrow and see what it is all about"

W: "Yes"

I had to go and so did W so we ended the call with an exchange of good nights.

later on, (Sunday morning) W called me as she was on her way to work. W spoke briefly talking about our plans for the day.

I returned home from work in the morning (sunday). When I walked in the bedroom W had propped up a stuffed plush dog (A gift I got her several years ago because it resembled a dog we had that is now passed. W loved the dog) up on my pillow. It made me laugh. I had TM w that I thought it was funny and W replied "I'm glad, I did it on purpose"

W returned home from work. I was hope and ready so we could go and attend the festival. I decided to make some lunch and also prepared a plate for my W.

W walked in the door, was heading for the fridge when I showed her that I had prepared a plate. W said "thank you" and proceeded to eat.


We finished up with our lunch. I asked W if she wanted to go over plans for the trip and she said "maybe later"

We headed out the door and to the festival. While there W seen some baby clothing and became excited. So I joined W in the excitement and we looked at the clothing together. W did purchase a few things.

We then headed back home carrying on conversation about various things.

We get home, W said her shoulder was hurting, W asked if I could rub her should which I did. I suggested to W to go into the spa pool and relax. W and I went into the spa. We goofed around and W said "Why don't we go back inside" we went back inside and ended up ML.

W suggested we go to another festival and watch the fireworks, I said it was a good idea and decided to call off work. W then decided that she did not want to go and wanted to lay in bed, watch TV and relax. SO I joined her. We had conversations and at one point I said ILY to W and W said in response "I hope so. ILY2 but it is hard for me to show it"

W became irritated by what, I don't know. I asked W if she would like to go on the computer and do some planning for the trip. W got annoyed and said no...tension began to built between us. I just left W alone, went on the computer and started to look up destinations for the trip and W fell to sleep.