I just had a revelation that she is crap and why should I set there and make myself feel like crap all day long every day.
This isn't a revelation, this is you shifting blame and not owning any part of the damage that has been done to your marriage... You sit and make yourself feel like crap day in and day out because you have not "set her free".
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~