i've been doing some work on myself. i am taking care of myself, i exercise, GAL-ed.
i don't know how to look at my sitch and get insight. my jekyll and hyde phase was short lived. i had contemplated filing myself but was told to hold off. my l recently sent a response to my h regarding his financials. the contents of the response will require him to confront his fears. i know that this will prompt him to file - if he already hasn't.
my intel says no OW. but my mind tends to think the worst.
i guess the advice i am looking for is .. if my h didn't leave me for his parents. then what did he leave me for? without knowing what i did, it's hard for me to do a 180. if i was too independent, then being strong now .. is that a bad thing?
there's a lot of great advice for the guys who are the lbs but not much for the ladies who are lbs.
i have no kids. and we don't have any daily interaction. am i really fooling myself into thinking this can be saved?
the division of stuff has really torn us apart. the d-bomb itself didn't hurt as much as splitting our stuff. mostly because it seemed like my h valued the things in the house more than me (a human being). the separation agreement continues to drive a wedge between us. even though i haven't asked for anything - not even spousal support. he went into the legal battle ready for a huge fight - he thought i was going to be this vindictive b*tch. i just stood by and watched him throw a temper tantrum like a child. i let him make his own rules, no matter how ridiculous. if he feels better afterwards, then great. i know if it was me, winning stuff wasn't going to make me feel better. the show isn't over yet. but it hurts to watch someone fight so hard for stuff that isn't worth fighting over. why does he hate me so much?
i am asking you, pdt because you've been on the boards for a while. you've seen it all. i'm not calling my sitch unique. i just can't connect the dots and find advice that i can apply.
