I guess maybe I thought it was pursuing because I saw H walking away and I followed and caught up to say goodbye.
The words that my heart was screaming to let out, my head controlled. Thank God H won't look into my eyes because they betray ma and tell all.
The only thing I felt bad about was watching H leave. Knowing he was headed away from me and recognizing once again there was nothing I could do to stop him.
I let those feelings wash over me as I watched H pull away. I honored them and then put them away and went back to the party and continued to enjoy our guests.
