The 13th was when my wife asked me to leave to give her some space.
I went thru every emotion for two days couldn't even get out of bed.
Backslid I guess.
I've been checking in everyday, really focusing on the resources.
The divorce isn't final, I'm coming out of my fog and gone whoa,look what I've done.
I'm working on all kinds of tricks to try to get her the past out of my mind.
I realize now why it has to be about us right now, because I had come accross this post, I've been going thru Snodderly's threads.
That while our loves are in "replay" we really do not stand a chance, it's best to get out of their way, give them the room they need and hope they get to "liminality," that may be anyone's best chance.
The Denial in Replay is so strong and it does hurt, I hurt terribly for her and the kids.
I haven't really begun I guess the hard work on myself, I've spent over a year trying to save or fix someone else.
I pray for us on DB and pray for them and your families everyday.
My son has been with me for 2 months my daughter once since January.
I text and call her everyday and let her know I love her and accept her as she is.
She'll text back occasionally.
I have not begun to fight, but I called attorney and said tear up the proposal, I have laid down too much and she or my daughter have really had no consequence.
I have been way too nice.
I have my motorcycle that is what I do for me and I'll be coaching football again, coming up with game plans today.
I haven't posted much to others, my fog was so bad, I would have been giving advice and you shouldn't take advice from someone more messed up than yourself.
