I have thrown some things out but not ready to throw all of the things out...in one way, we are holding on to stuff that was from our old H's, the ones that we fell in love with...they are no longer here...
I had some post its from in the beginning after we had started staying at each other's over night...some would say something like "good mornin' darlin'" or "wild woman"...I won't say all of them and I have hung on to those for years...one time, I said to H "remember these? back when you loved me?" and laughed...this was BEFORE I his knew about his MLC and OW...he just kinda shrugged...geez, you'd think I'd have gotten a clue after that. I WANTED him to say those things to me again but I wasn't doing anything to change myself...in my mind, he was the one that changed when in fact, it was both of us! I just didn't see that!
I know now, I have not been that woman he wrote those notes to for years...kids, life etc...so we both had changed. I did throw those away awhile ago. When/if H comes back, we will both be different people again and hopefully there will be new notes!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
and I have hung on to those for years...one time, I said to H "remember these? back when you loved me?" and laughed...this was BEFORE I his knew about his MLC and OW...he just kinda shrugged...geez, you'd think I'd have gotten a clue after that. I WANTED him to say those things to me again but I wasn't doing anything to change myself...in my mind, he was the one that changed when in fact, it was both of us! I just didn't see that!
