WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

Not so good update. We are done, headed to D. We basically dumped each other. She said she couldn't try any more, there are no feelings left, she has no love left. I told her I deserved better, after all that I've done and put up with. That's the short version of a long discussion that covered a lot territory. Things are still amicable and friendly. There were some tears shed on both sides.

In the end, it was classic WAW script. I tried for 14 years and now the love is dead and I can't get it back.

And now that we've reached this point, now she tells me she actually has depression meds that she got back in March and she agreed to start taking them tonight.

No real details discussed on D or just separation, but I can tell from conversation she is thinking D.

First question for friends/experts: do I push the D and get it over with or do I make her do all the work. I suspect it would take her a while.

We are still on tight timelines to get to next duty location. We agreed we have to pull it together to get there and get settled. She is going drive about half way or more with me and then fly. Its complicated, but that works. And she is even offering to do all the leg work to help find a place for me to live. We have agreed to attempt to live in same school district. Do I allow this? She clearly understands that once we go down this path, our friendship is over.

I am not happy about this, but am not devastated either.