I think I've detached enough to see past wanting her to 'cave.' I'm just sad that what we did have was lost; irretrievable now. When I get my lowest, it's because of my needs, but I don't think that's all bad.
I don't want her to do what I want for me/because of me, I want her to want me. To share our children's lives together in a loving home. To share our lives together.
She talks of being friends, and sharing our lives, just not romantically. I don't know how realistic that is, nor how healthy it would be for me, the LBS. But as coparents, there's a huge attraction to it. The friendlier I am with her, the more involved we'll both be with our daughters, and that has to be a good thing, right?
