I went to a listen to a speaker at an AA meeting tnight, very helpful. I do not believe I am an alcoholic, but someone who realized their drinking was becoming excessive and did not want to go down the route that so many others hove gone. The meetings are also insughtful to what others go through with everyday life and why the climb into a bottle to cope. I got out of my meeting and sent a text to my W, saying- I assume you made it to gma's ok? her response 20 minutes later, "yup". I just now received a phone call from the W's cell it was my 3 year old and 5 year old wanting to talk to me. Of course the W did not get on the phone at all, I could hear her in the background telling them to say I love you and hurrying them off the phone. She is so checked out of reality and what is happening to our family it makes me sick, I am getting to the point where my family is saying that allowing her another seperation is enabling her to stay in Limbo, do waht she wants and not work on the marriage. They want me to tell her to put up, or get out and do your thing. Which in a way is what I am going to do tomorrow when I tell her she wants out, leave.
I am not going to be the one who leaves. Should be interesting when they get home and she doesnt see any of my stuff packed up.
