Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

Tough evening. H was at S's game. One of the mothers on the team pulled me aside to let me know that my S and another team mate had snuck out of the house the other night. My heart sank to my stomach.

I ask my H if we could talk and I told him what had occurred and he said "well just shut him down more" - WTH / I just look at him say ok and walk away.
He then texts me later and says "do WE need to talk more? Do WE need to tell him?" I text back say "no, I've got it handled" He texts me later on and asks if I had shut him down and asked how he was. I let him know that yes - we r all good.

WTF???? Who is this man?? I imagine that he had made plans with his new "friends" and this issue may have interfered with his evening. My heart continues to be broken. I miss my H. I miss sharing parenting. I miss having him hold me at the end of the night. I miss spooning in bed. I miss him holding my hand. In a span of 24 hours - it was gone. Now he is with strangers.

How did this become my life? All I see are couples all around me and I'm lonely - even though I am with family. Am I crazy????