Nothing fits

[mishka422]

Wii - It took me about a month of taking it before I started to notice a difference in my moods. It just made them a little more even than they had been. No extreme difference but enough to keep me sane (somewhat! LOL)

So, you ask what it would take for me to give this a chance? If I could answer that with any clarity it sure would help wouldn't it?

Simply put....I don't trust him and he's not willing to do anything to improve that. He is a pathological liar. Even the little things are answered with lies and evasions. Example? Today we were driving to the thrift store to look for clothes for Marc. On the way I wanted to check some movie times and since he has unlimited data on his phone I asked to use it. He handed it to me but I wanted to download the Fandango app to it which required his itunes password. I asked him for it and he refused. I said to stop being ridiculous and he still refused. I handed him back the phone and he put his password in. I still looked up the movie info I wanted but I won't be asking him for his phone for any reason again. Something so simple and he refused.

The woman he was talking to on FB sent me a message and told me that he was trying to 'get with' her and one of her best friends. Her friend is married! She said she had no idea we were in any kind of R and thought we were just divorced and friends. So, if that is how he is playing it, fine. He lies and evades and these latest actions show me how little he cares for anyone but himself and his selfish desires. The sex is amazing but it's not worth this emotional damage.

I haven't come up with how I am going to approach getting him out of my house and out of my life. It's very difficult for me but it's become pretty clear to me that this is my only option. I love him but not how he treats me so I have to let him go completely now.

This is so hard.