You can't have everything, where would you put it?

[ClingingToHope]

SR, her lawyer sucks. In fact, he's kind of a joke in the legal circles and I'm a little insulted that she didn't get a better one.

So part of me wants to go to court just to see what happens.

That's neither here nor there. Great night tonight. The codependency class on Fridays is really going to help, I think. I realized that I should be seeing STBXW as little as possible because right now she can't win with me.

If she's nice, I start thinking "well, we aren't actually divorced. You never know." I haven't let go.

If she's mean then she's a b*tch.

That lasted until 9 p.m. I hustled up north to meet one of my best friends who is going through the same thing (a D) as I am.

Boy is he ahead of the game. His D was final last week and his Ex took it hard even though it's what she wanted. He was out tonight with his new GF. She's very, very nice. She's a daycare lady at a private school my girls went to when they were small. She remembers D7 and was happy to hear she's doing much better.

I stayed there for an hour before heading to a music venue to see a live band at the invite of a 37-year-old who was my neighbor growing up. I made a play for her when I was 20 and she shot me down.

It was a lot of fun catching up. She's had a lot of troubles. Her marriage crumbled 10 years ago. She moved to the Chicago suburbs but returned five years ago to take care of her mother, who probably only has months to live. On top of that, her brother either accidentally shot himself or committed suicide a year ago.

It puts my situation in perspective. I had an excellent time. We talked. She filled me in on her life. I didn't talk much about mine. We slow danced once -- that felt really good.

There's no future there. She's a band groupie. That's not what I'm looking for. It was great to be invited and I may see her tonight after my church singles group thing breaks up.

Life is good. Very, very good.