WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

Didn't have time to post for a couple of days due to move. As always thanks for the great advice and perspectives.

Let me answer the question:
No, there is no family here. We are both in military and both have to be to new base soon.

I really thought she hit rock bottom a couple of weeks ago with the suicidal thoughts and realization she needed help. Nope. Then again with the night of crying "I am broke, I need help, I don't know why I am broke"...nope. And I am getting it that I can't convince her to fix herself, your posts helped.

Dump her/let her go. That has finally sunk in. It will happen. I have to do it. The roller coaster was tough, but this lately is more than a roller coaster and I just can't take it.

I am very concerned though. I am watching carefully. In the last 24 hours she has gone downhill. Only time I've ever seen her lower was when she was talking suicide...so if she continues to get worse...I worry she could get to that point again. Can I fix it, no. But she is the mother of my children, so I do worry.

Yes you are right, there are still things to learn about myself. My journey is certainly not over.
Thanks Gucci and Steve