I am in a way. I will not call her. I don't respect the marriage. I will not sleep with her again while she is married or kiss or have any contact sexual if that is what you mean. This I am doing for me. I will take her back and nurture her if she comes back that is what she wants-she is like a little girl that never grew up but heck, I don't know what she is going to do. Once again, I am kind in limbo waiting for her. I will still do my work that I need to do. I am pretty sure she doesn't know. She said the other day she knows her place is with me. Well, she is not here still. I just hope I can make it up. My teachers think I am going through a divorce but it is just like it, almost like a death. It hurts just as badly as a death. Except in death you can believe they are in a better place, in divorce you want them to be with you so it might just be harder to accept. I don't know crazy thoughts by me.
