Wow, you've got one hell of a tough list there, Geronimo! My advice is to call about the kids maybe once a week, not daily. You can't detach if you're talking to her every day. Btw, I fully endorse your goal to build a new R with the mother of your children...but it is not an easy road. Take things a little at a time and be good to yourself, don't expect too much too soon. And don't bury the pain, feel it when it comes then let it go, it's a long process and that's OK. Good luck!
